I know this is a very morbid subject, but I only pose it out of curiousity. Please don't jump to any conclusions about me, this blog does not reflect my intentions.

So yeah, suicide: how would you do it?

I have thought about it sometimes. I guess if I were to kill myself, I would not want my family to suffer knowing that I was dead. Most likely, I would try to convince them that I had to quickly leave the country permanently due to some kind of issue: cops are after me, I joined the French Foreign Legion, pursued by ghosts, whatever. It would be very hard convincing them; definitely the most difficult task involved. 

To provide ample evidence, I would take the items from my house which would normally get snatched up and packed if travelling in a hurry. I would absolutely NOT give anything away, just leave with the travelling bags. Ensuring that there is nothing in the bags to identify the owner, I'd drive about 100 miles away and chuck them in a dumpster. The one thing that I would bring for later is a pistol with the serial number ground off with a Dremel tool. One final stop before phase two: the bank. Remove all of my savings.

The third phase would be to drive far away from anything, especially family. Personally, I would go down south to Arizona or New Mexico. Once in the desert, I would pull over and strip the identification panels and license plates from my car. The thought had crossed my mind that it would be easier to file a police report and claim the car was stolen before leaving home, but that could bring unwanted difficulties and too much attention. Next,  destroy  my  wallet. Once finished, drive out to a pre-determined place where the disposal of a car would be relatively easy. Reservoirs would be my choice. Dump the car. Then, just because I would love to do this, burn all of the cash I withdrew from the bank.

If it is cool out (winter or a summer evening/morning), walk FAR away. The point is to get so far that nobody will find you for years. Personally, I would drive to the hills before ditching the car on the way; nobody would find you out there for decades most likely. Then a temple-shot with the .45.

Now I seriously am not suicidal, it is just a thing I think about when I'm waiting to get my car fixed or at the dentist's office. Seriously, I'm not going to kill myself or anything, so don't PM me telling me to do it. Everyone muses on how to carry out the perfect murder, so why should your own self-murder be unworthy of ponderance? So what would you do? Go out with a bang looking for attention or do it on the down-low? How would you do it?

Also, on the subject of suicide... it really pisses me off when people say "suicide is for cowards". If someone really wants to off themself, would they really care? I sure as hell wouldn't. I don't believe that after your suicide you are going to reflect upon it in shame. Would you really care what people thought of you after you were dead? Hell no. Legacies are a hollow sham.

Sic Transit Gloria