i was just writing my best blog to date about how fucked my life with an anxiety disorder is.  it was going to be epic... it was the best writing i have ever done.  it is my own fault though. the power cord to my laptop got disconnected sometime lastnight and right in the middle of this blog with tears running down my face from the emotional toll it was taking my shit dies on me.  theres no attempting to rewrite what i had... i can't go through it again.  maybe it was the worlds way of telling me it was not meant to be commented on or read by anyone but me.  sorry you had to read this to find out it was nothing, and i hate people who write pointless blogs... well i do hate myself right now so...